Is your all on the altar??

The pressure of everything was finally coming to a head, when I chose to just let the chips fall where they may, including myself on the altar, because I couldn't feel the power. Although I had seemingly given up, God had not given up on me. He had something more in mind. He hadn't left me, I had to try harder(diligently) to seek Him.
The moment I chose to give up and walk away, was the very moment I was caught up by one who had more than enough faith for the both of us.
Oh the difference a day makes. Just like that I can see things a little more clearer than the day before. I can hear that inner voice that I am so used too, gently speaking to my spirit. The power of God is real, even when things get so cloudy, we need only to stop and seek Him.
So the storm won the first round(past few months), but the fight ain't over. I am here to go another round and I am shouting I shall live and not die, and declare the works of the Lord!!!

Force of habit!!

I have been up for the past few hours wondering what to do with myself. For the past 8 years, I have instictively popped up early on this day so that I can put all the final touches on my daughter's birthday bash. Well this year, like so many before, I am up but with nothing to do. This year my big girl is only inviting 3 friends to have lunch and then go swimming. Wow! what a change from the past.

We have hosted diva parties, pop star parties, had swimming soirees at every local dive you can think of, including Schitterbahn, but today a quiet house. So since I am up, I have used this quiet time to reflect and thank God for the many blessings we have experienced since having Trinity in our lives. I am so thankful that He has intrusted me with her.

BUT old habits do die hard, so I still made goodie bags filled with flip flops, floaties, candy, snacks, stampers with a gem handle, water tied with ribbon and kool aid packets and twisty straws hang from them. I couldn't help myself. What? she's still my baby. ;-)